Reiki Saved Me

I thought I would share this because many people do not know about the benefits of Reiki. I am not going to spend a lot of time explaining what it is as it’s easy to search for information today and there are many ways to describe Reiki, what it does, and how it helps depending upon the person you speak to about it. I can talk a little more about it at the end of this post, but I want to make sure I note that everything I write in all my posts are based on my experiences, impressions, and my views and opinions. I am not a doctor of any type, so I make no claims as to the success of Reiki or any alternative modalities in treating any mental or physical health condition. Please always consult your physicians for any mental or emotional health concerns. 

I am not going to spend time explaining the circumstances of my life or what brought me to the place I was at mentally and emotionally because I have several posts sharing circumstances in my life, how they affected me, and what I have learned and how I have grown though them. The situation which led me to seek help was the culmination of childhood and my plans to live differently as an adult. It was when I was hit with events that completely changed everything I built, that I hit rock bottom and needed help. Rock bottom should not be reserved only to describe a place reached through drug or alcohol use and addiction because it is a place anyone can reach when they have given their all to life and the rug was pulled out from underneath them. In my case, I not only landed on my knees, but also fell into a dark pit swimming in a traumatic shock which led to severe depression and dissociation from everyone and everything, including life. 

It would have been extremely easy to give up and remain in that place and I did, at least for a while. I wanted someone to fix it all, see my side and agree with me, and give me back what I had lost. Due to the event that took me to such a dark place, I lost my identity. Things can happen in life, and we can cover it up by racing to fill that void with anyone and anything to “fix” us. Identity is not that easy and when I lost that, I lost my world and who I believed myself to be in this life. Faced with this loss, the shock was more than I could put into words. This shock put me in a state of silence because my brain checked out and my heart sunk to the depths of space and time where there was no existence, no life. My response was to do nothing and when I say nothing, I mean the only thing that got me out of bed daily was the responsibility I had to the animals that surrounded me. Everyone else in the home at that time was old enough to care for themselves. After I fed and cared for my pets, I sat on the couch, I stared at a wall, and I did not do anything but breathe. The only plan I had as I sat there was to await death to come realizing that could be decades, but I did not have the desire, motivation, or mental and physical energy to do much else. At the end of each day, I walked to my bed to end the day and wait for the next, should my eyes open the next day.  

Fortunately, I had a therapist I had already been seeing to address another situation I had been managing for a few years. It was my therapist, and realizing I could sit for decades on a couch that gave me any hope of finding the desire to put one foot in front of the other each day. I went weekly then twice weekly once the therapist saw the severity of my depression. I realized I was not getting better and talking was not helping, nor were the medications. My therapist is also a Reiki practitioner and she agreed to include Reiki in my sessions. At first the only thing I noticed was feeling less spacey, more grounded and I felt less despair. After a couple of weeks, I asked if I could receive Reiki weekly because it was the only thing that helped me to feel at least some sort of difference and different to me was better than no change at all.  

After more time passed, I noticed the fog lifting and I was no longer dissociating from life. I was able to begin sculpting a new identity. I say new but that was my thought at the time but in all reality, I was still the same soul in this body and experiencing this life. The identity I placed on myself was only something I created by experience and my mind. This is for another post if I have not already posted on this topic. I remembered how important spirituality and my practice of it meant to me in the past and I had not included that in my life for a long time. I decided to make this my goal and started reading, watching anything related to my area of interest, meditating, and continuing to go to my Reiki sessions weekly. In time I started to notice that I felt peaceful, less stressed, and able to function and think better after each Reiki treatment. I started to notice the changes in my thoughts, mood, and energy after each session. I could see how it only lasted two to three days before I would begin to decline again. This helped me to see how much Reiki was helping me. 

Several months had passed and I asked my therapist if I could learn Reiki because I would like to keep it up at home between visits. She believed I was ready and attuned me to Reiki I and II that day. This can be done separately or at the same time and in my situation, with her available regular guidance, and my request and acceptance, I was attuned to both. Even though I was unable to feel anything happening and unsure of if it was working, I continued to practice on myself at home. I continued with therapy and Reiki treatments by my therapist, and I noticed that I sustained the benefits for longer periods of time. Two days grew into five, a full week, and then two weeks. I was able to reduce my visits to biweekly as I could sustain the energetic changes for longer periods of time, and I could continue to practice on myself. 

I’m not sure where you are at in your beliefs but if you have not already heard, we are all energetic systems. The traumatic event I experienced hit so hard that my energetic frame and flow of energy had slowed and become out of balance. Initially the treatments assisted to realign me, but I was unable to sustain it. With regular treatments I became more balanced, and I was able to sustain it for longer periods of time. I can go a month or more without treatments now if I cannot get one, but I am usually getting tuned up through receiving Reiki directly, giving myself Reiki, or through providing Reiki treatments to others. When providing Reiki treatments to others, the universal source flows through you so you receive when you give. Doesn’t this sound familiar?  

I never considered being attuned beyond Reiki II but one day I heard that it is time to grow more in the energy. I asked my therapist and she smiled and agreed she believed I was ready and had been thinking about it before I asked. She is always able to anticipate my questions and choices. I was attuned and received my Reiki Master certification. In the beginning I was afraid to offer Reiki because I did not know if I had what others had to offer, or that I could “do it.” This was more related to self-confidence and the knowledge that I still had a lot of healing and work to do on myself. I did not feel it was fair to others to receive treatments through me until I was in a better place mentally and emotionally. I also did not feel the energy moving the way I expected but practicing further opens the channel and allows more to flow. Energy always flows but I was not sensitive enough to feel it yet.  

I witnessed the difference Reiki made in calming someone who was upset so I knew it was flowing through me whether I felt it or not. I remember the excitement I felt when I started to feel it. I remember thinking, I CAN do it! I became more confident, and it became a domino effect. The more I felt, the more confident I became and the more sensitive I became to the flow and energy. I also learned there are times when I may feel nothing, but everyone will receive exactly what is needed and as much as they will accept at any given time. 

Accept? Yes, because the person receiving Reiki makes a choice to accept as little or as much of the energy they want because it comes down to the freedom to choose. A person may or may not feel anything and may or may not fall asleep during a session but when they get off the table, they notice how they feel. Reiki is quite simply universal energy that flows through the practitioner as he or she gently lays their hands on someone. It is a light touch, I am not giving you my energy, and I might not need to lay my hands on you because there are times when Reiki is performed elsewhere in your energy field and hands do not touch you at all, even if you are ok with being touched. You may also choose not to be touched and the energy will still flow. We are all energy beyond what can be seen. It is why you can feel when someone is down, not like the energy of a room, or feel happiness all around you. Energy is like water, it flows everywhere. Reiki helps to balance and relax you and you may also notice emotions that rise during the process. It is important to allow them to flow and release them from the body as the energy will move what is not serving you and give you what you need. 

Reiki saved me because I was in a place where medications, talking, crying and everything else failed. Reiki helped balance, realign, pull out and open my energy field to exactly what I needed. I did not feel it flowing at first, however I did notice something seemed different even if I could not put my finger on it. Once I knew something in me was different, I stuck with it and found a way to grow and prepare to handle future blows. Yes, I still have life happen, but I know I can get through it and Reiki and the way I have grown will always help me. Reiki not only helped me to bounce back, but it also opened the door to a whole new way of thinking and healing more than one moment in time. 

I have grown more sensitive and stronger with it as my intuition and gifts (clair’s) have grown significantly. I am stronger with how I can manage the blows life sends my way and I am conscious of every lesson I am given. I choose how I am going to live. Do you want to live life letting it hit you, not knowing how to handle it, and remain in victim mode? If we do not choose to learn, grow, and discover ourselves, we choose to be a victim of everything and rely on pity. I do not like being stuck anywhere near victim mode. I do not want pity. I want to choose how I live life. I am here if you want to ask questions or seek clarification. Humanity only grows better when we grow together. 

Thank you for being here 

Thank you for listening 

Divine Blessings 

Victoria